Rebekah 'Vamm Goda' Garcia, Rebekah 'Vamm Goda' Garcia, FanArt

Rebekah is a goth/geek who wants to have pointy ears

Elfwood User Name: beatrice2

Page: http://www.elfwood.com/~beatrice2

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My attempts at art always begin with the knowledge that everything I bring into existence shall treat me with utter contempt. I am forever reclusive and uneasy before my own works. I stand before them in utter horror, somewhere along the lines of:
“Who created this junk?”
“You know very well it was me.”
“I knew I wasn’t suppose to put anything down.”
I can put forth feeble excuses like “I felt it at the time.” But that’s all they are. Excuses.
Explanations, on the other hand, are not always excuses, though they can sound like them. I do not attempt to explain anything I do, because I couldn’t be farther from comprehending them myself. I always feel the only way to explain is to understand, first and foremost. A lack of understanding can be seen as expertise, and this is an unforgivable offence.
The fact is, I’m a fake. Not to say that I’m trying to make others think certain things about me. I don’t care what you think. Well, I do care, but not that much. No, I’ve spent my time trying to convince myself that I’m something. To a large degree I have succeeded, only to come upon something I fear is my reflection later on, and turn my back on its reality.
And this rambling, disjointed philippic has desultorily driven me to somewhere I don’t really like to go, the realm of explanation. I have often made sojourns there, though every time I attempt to analyse my own work a small part of my brain looks at me and informs me “No, I don’t believe I will”. Ultimately, it is the viewer, not the creator, that must find meaning, if any. For this art is no longer mine, though close examination reveals damning evidence of my signature upon each one.
There is some art here that I would not create today. I don’t believe in them like I used to. They are here because they played a role in my transition, from who I was, to who I am, and who I will become. They are not here for their questionable quality, they are here because of their undeniable worth. It’s disconcerting to look over something someone else has drawn and realize that someone else was you. I’m not ashamed of what I’ve created, and what I’ve been, and what I’ve been through. It’s just not me anymore. It’s perfectly clear to me that what I create today will not be mine tomorrow. I don’t resent their loss.
I bear my neck to the sword, and my works to the critic’s pen. I only ask that viewers remember:

This is a simple statement of me, for what it’s worth.

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Guestbook for Beatrice2

Date	Name	Comment
11 Jan 2003	E. Hanna	Loading... Dances a merry Irish first comment jig I can't believe no one has commented yet. This artwork is good, but that "Bounty-Hunter" picture is superb. Also, the "Bounty-Huntress" is a nice touch. Well done : > (he raises his lightsaber in salute) Salutes with her blaster Thankies!
24 Mar 2003	Sierra Grillot	Loading... I do I agree, that I do. MCoy, Bones, is the best. "Dammit, Jim, I'm a doctor not a (insert random thing he ain't here)!" ::grin:: Q rocks people "Very funny, Worf, eat any good books lately?" :nickers:: Jeen Luck Pickard :nickers:: Shameless Trekkie... Much Love peeps! Yeah! A McCoy fan! And someone who likes Q! Spiffy! Thanks for dropping by!
3 Apr 2003	Amy L. Moore	Loading... Great fanart page. Thanks for visting!
28 May 2003	Jessie	Loading... It’s not purple... Its laaaaavender! Although I haven’t seen it yet. I finally found your page. I like it. Yay! You are coming over to see it soon, I assure you. And you found one of my pages, my dear. The others are far superiour.
20 Jul 2003	Kestrel.Makoda -=Formerly Darshu=-	Loading... Thou knowest of the evil squirrels of Doom as well? Yes .> Outside my bedroom Window. With hammers! Oh! Woe is me! They broke my playstation with those hammers! I grieve over smashed circuts! So I ran! Sings I rannn I ran so far awayyyy.... Err.. Nice art ^.^ Gives thumbs up Squirrels. Squirrels of dooooom ...
5 Feb 2004	Kascha 'The Unborn' Sweeney	Loading... Heya! Woot, go Nightcrawler, the little cute ickle blueberry muffin that he is. Love your style, and your bio is really touching. Anyways, gotsed to fly, KUTGW, Peace, Love and a Paperclip, The Queen of Slash. Nightcrawler!! Glad you like everything! I am such a slash freak. I swear . . .