"Almost Real (poem)" by Esther SP. Buhrman

You
The last weary wanderer surrenders to sleep,
A Grecian goddess encased in death-like slumber.
In midnight's regal cloak you sigh
The swallowing black waters are but sustenance for your ravenous imagination.
I know your recurring nightmare of burning red eyes
Scalding your soul
Your heart
Eternally staring in a face united with the night.
I feel the night
A woolen cloak lending me wings to fly with.
Underneath that faint electric silence there's the hum of a wistful
Fragile melody.
I passionately dance
Spinning and falling back in night's arms.
An ardent heart beats within me as I soar to the night's face
A never ending ocean of sky with its misty cloud boats
Drifting in tranquil seas of ebony.
I touch the pulsing electric stars
Make a wish and throw one.
Maybe someone will see a shooting star?
The night's milky white eye gazes at me unblinking
In your sanctuary
You still sleep
I kneel at your side
You seem so unreal to me.
What is it like to feel pain?
To laugh,
To cry,
To love?
To your closed eyes and soft lips,
The curve of your cheek and the satin of your hair,
I tenderly bestow the liquid moonlight.
I pretend I can feel your breath upon my face
Feel the smoothness of your skin
Always pretending your tremulous lips whisper to me.
How alone I am with a companion that only hums and speaks of beauty.
In the day I am only a shadow that lies beneath you.
I am crushed,
Fading,
Dying.
I am everything
I am nothing.
If I sing you a song,
Will you hear me?
My mouth opens and a song floods forth,
A beautiful voice from ages past.
A voice you gave to me.
I smile as only I can
Watching your belief in me
Seeping through your eyes
Running down your cheeks in effortless streams of silver.
I hold out my hand
Catch your tears
I can feel their wetness, warmth and pain.
Here
In the palm of my hand are all your hopes and wishes.
I close my hand tightly
Open it to reveal a handful of diamond tears,
Shining and sparkling,
That's how precious they are to me.
I bow my head and kiss them.
If you really believe in me,
I will be free.
Just like I am your dreams,
You are mine
And I'll wear your tears and pretend I can cry too.