SciFi & Fantasy Artwork by Mandee(Madd/Midnyte)Fisher

Hi! thanks for dropping in on my loth! Your gallery is great. Wonderful pencilings of faces. And you use color! so many others are scared to. Well Ill stop ranting now...Keep drawing! It will keep you sane, well at least that is what the voices tell me.

Giggles and annoyingly bubbly stuffs!

Mandee(Madd/Midnyte)Fisher replies: "The voices tell me the same thing too...issat nermal?"

yea yea, so what if it does? i still like its art since i never figured out how to play. shpank ye for tha rather nice comment. your stuff still blows mine away by a good half mile or so ^_^

Mandee(Madd/Midnyte)Fisher replies: "I dont see how mine is better then yours..."

Nice art dear. Keep it up. <3

Mandee(Madd/Midnyte)Fisher replies: "Thank you baby. I love you muches."

Hi Mandee...

I read an article by Gore Vidal--I think the book was "Sexually speaking."...a collection of essays. His thinking is: we are all born bi-sexual. it's merely society that has made us create a preference. Interesting thot. I come by way of Jessica Gaude's work. She listed you as a friend/influence.

I think the one thing being on the Internet has done for me is changed my...hmm..how to put it...awareness of people and their concerns with their sexuality. It now tends to amaze me when I go to see something in the offline world, just how TAME it still is out there. (I dropped television watching about five years ago when I came to the Internet. Is it any better?)

Do you know what I mean? The Internet has broken down some mindset barriers without even trying.

Heather

talk to you. I missed you then, as I miss you now.

I yearn for you, Maddy, and I always will. When I have what I want from you, I still love you, with the strength of the black hole I'd travel through, to get you those precious universal gems. I will never stop loving you, no matter how hard I may try. Perhaps you cast some soulful spell on me the first day you talked to me. Perhaps your love for me, from way back when, was a subliminal but mutual thing for me. I know that I will always love you, whether you or I die, whether the world ends, whether the universe surrounds us. I don't know if you care in the slightest about my love for you.

I love you, Mandee Grace Fisher. If you want me to or not, I do. I'll cry you a river of my heartbroken tears, and build you a bridge of my broken spirit. You can walk over that bridge with no thought of where it came from, or why it was built, you can not care in the least. If you would walk that bridge and pass me by, I'll go over that bridge, and worship the clods of dirt and bits of dust that had touched you, because I love you. I'll collect that dirt and dust that touched you, and cherish it forever. If you pass me by in reality, then I'll keep your love in memory, for days long since past are the lost days in time. If you leave me behind, and don't talk to me forever, I will always remember you, even in death, beyond death, wherever that takes me.

You know my number, if you care to talk to me, Maddy. I love you forever.
::Nameless.::

each night. You can't know how much I miss that. The week you spend with me, 8 days, 8 days that I will remember forever. I want that again. I want to feel your love emanate from you like that again.

I don't know if I can be happy without you. I know I can be happy if I am with you. If you could be happy to be with me again, if you're sure you could be happy if you were with me again, then give me that second change, i beg you.

Tell me to die after you've read this, I promise I will. If you want me to die, or suffer, I will, because I love you. You're the only person I've loved like this. You can name as many males as you want, but none of them were like this love. You can name as many platonic friends as you want, none of them are like this. Each of those males you could have, might have, named, had something that I wanted. I would love them only until I got that something from them. That love was based on some item or idea, and was not true. Even one I know you must have thought of, that love is not like this love. That love is only there because he will not love me how I want him to. All those friends you could have, might have, named, are just that; they're friends. I have lost friends before, I've lost "siblings" before. I could care less if I lose them. I might mourn them if they left, but I would not try to get them back like I would try to get you back. I care more about keeping you than them. I would leave them all in a minute just to have you again.

I did leave you once, I know that. But when I left you, I had loved another girl by the name of Amber. She had never been my girlfriend. She and I were always just friends with benefits. We were never together, even briefly. When I had left you, I had loved her, and then she disappeared from my life. I have not always loved you like I do now, but I have always loved you in some way, shape, or form. That's why I came back to you, after leaving you for so long. That's how my love grew for you, when I didn't

it to you. Ask me for eternal life, I'll die to grant it to you. Ask me for the greatest magic this world has known, I will take that power and put it in you. Ask me for every gem of the universe, I'll travel forever, to the end of space and time and into a black hole to get them for you. I'll do anything to get you back.

I am truly sorry for what I did. It was the worst wrong I could ever do. My jealousy overrode what little sanity I'd had left. I couldn't stand the fact it was always him, and not me. I wanted so desperately for the person on the phone to be me.

I'll spend the rest of my life and beyond begging you to love me again, to have me once more and give me another chance. I know I don't deserve it, but I'm begging on my knees for that chance. Please, please, please, even a limited amount of time to prove myself, I'll do anything.

I've tried to make my peace with him. As far as I can tell, from rare occasions when he's so bored he might talk to me, I have succeeded. Now my only task is to make amends with you, possibly even earn your friendship or love, though I am not worthy of such gifts.

That last night you called me, when I had the impression we made up, I said no specific type of love to either person, nor attempted to imply any sort. I only said it so that it might have made it more clear that we had been all right. I never told that girl to tell him anything. Anything and everything she ever said to him was her own idea.

The night you called, I had already given up fighting. I was sick of it, and I still am. I want things to go back to almost the way they were, when you and he started going together. I want to stop fighting with the two of you. I've given up fighting it. I'm still as jealous as I ever was, but I give up. I want you to be happy. If it means being with him, then I will accept it. I've stopped fighting it. All I want now is your happiness and your love.

We had such wonderful times when we were together. We would talk for hours

My dearest Maddy:

I don't know how far I'll go. I know I would travel to the end of the world, through hell and back, through time, over the highest mountain and to the bottom of the deepest sea to have your love again. I don't know if I'll ever talk to you again, the way I used to be able to. I know I did wrong with what I had done, and I am truly sorry for it. I should never have done it in the first place, I do regret it terribly. I don't know if I'll ever be able to stop feeling the way I do about you. I know I miss you with all my heart. I don't know if you care. I know I have to get this out.

I would honestly do anything and everything to earn your love again. Anything you asked me to do, I would do in an instant. Everything feels so unnatural without you. I need you with every fiber of my being.

I'll declare my love for you to the world. I'll walk up to any stranger on the street and tell them, I am in love with Mandee Grace Fisher, and I will always love her, to the end of my days. I'll walk up to both my parents, to an assembly of my immediate family, and I'll say, She was my girlfriend once, and I loved her as much as any woman can love another being on this earth, I loved her infinitely greater than that. I'll get it tattooed onto my shaved skull if that would make you love me again.

I have tried to stop loving you. I have tried to stop caring like I once did. I'll never be able to stop. I will always love you, no matter what would happen. I want you to be mine. I'll share you with the world if you wanted, as long as a part of you was mine, and mine alone. I don't care how big or small, but if it were just the smallest loving hair upon your body, I would be happy. I won't lie: I would yearn for more, after that one piece, as any human would yearn. But I would never ask for another part of you, so long as that single part of you would always love me.

Tell me what you wish of me: I swear to fulfill your wish. Anything you ask, I'll give my soul to give

So I was wandering through elfwood and I found your site. And lo and behold you happened to have my favorite color as a whole picture on your site. Purple. Your purple pirate happens to now be my favorite picture. It should have gotten a mods choice just because of the artistic use of the color purple. >.>.... Well anyways. Great gallery and I can't wait till you update summore soon maybe? *Snickers*...*Sigh* Well anyways. Toodles and take care

~Maeve~

Heya, Maddy! Wow, I haven't seen you in Forever! Do you still have AIM? 'Cause if you do, I'm still online most nights. Same screenname as before (thesoulweaver). I'd give you my e-mail address, but my junk mail filter is set to block anything from people who aren't in my address book. If you give me your address, though, I can certainly e-mail you. And I can also put your address in my contact list, so you can e-mail me back. ^_^

I think I'm gonna update my Elfwood page pretty soon, though I have no idea how long it'll be before it goes through. It's been a while, so I don't know if the moderating process still takes as long as it used to.

Anyway, I'll try to check my notes more, if you want to respond to me on there. TTYL, hun!