He wishes that no one would forgive him. He become a hero by killing a friend.
They knew each other from childhood, where best friends.
His friend become a magician, went to the town where the wizards live.
He become a knight in school of knights and went on adventures with the others. They both become stronger and stronger, but one of them could not bear it. The unvilling heros friende become mad.
He, our hero, was forced to kill hes best friend and so become a hero. He hates it.
"Never, never forgive me,"he says every time he remember his friend."Curse me, never forgive me."